Monday, January 23, 2012

Things are A-changing

Two things happened at mass this Sunday: I didn't go to confession because I haven't memorized the Act of Contrition all the way yet and I got embarrassed about it (so, I didn't take communion either), and Father (basically) announced that participation in the mass by singing was now more encouraged. 

I had noticed, when I sat in the pew, a book sitting with me.  So I picked it up and leafed through it, finding songs and various prayers.  I didn't think much of it other than it was new, so when Father had us kneel and say a prayer from it, I was vaguely surprised.  When he said that he would like us to sing, I was more surprised.
My initial reaction was excitement - I love to sing - and I spent the majority of the morning being excited for it.  Now I have mixed feelings.  I would love to sing parts of the mass (only if others around me are singing, I'm a very shy singer) but I'm not extremely excited for reciting prayers in unison during mass.  I usually just follow along silently, because reciting in groups has always made me uncomfortable.  The only exception I've found for this is the rosary - which I still say silently, but the prayers said aloud don't stir discomfort.  I can't say why it makes me uncomfortable, but there's an uneasiness that has always come with it.  My best guess is that it seems sheep-ish and the rebellious side of me, well, rebels against following the crowd.
Also, there's something unsettling about sitting back and listening to a fairly large group of people say something in unison.  It's like we're hypnotized...or something.

What we can take away from this is that I'm weird.

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The rest of my weekend was spent writing out wedding invitations.  My mom came down to help, and I'm very glad she did.  I couldn't have gotten them done without the help of my mom, god-mother, and sister-in-law.  And my fiance; all he has to do is be present and I'm happier about working on something (he also helped stamp stuff).  Oh, and my roommate, she helped stamp on Saturday.

I might put a picture of the finished product on here, if I'm not too lazy.

At any rate, happy Monday!

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